Kamusta naman?

Bigla kita namiss. Kasi naman kaibigan kita eh. Ilang taon nga ulit yun? Di ko naman talaga ginusto na ganito tayo–malayo, walang imikan, walang pakeelamanan, nagiiwasan. Well di naman kita iniiwasan. Nagpapapansin na ko pero di mo naman alam. Saka iba na ang gusto mo. Iba na ang kasama mo. Iba na ang trip mo. Ako ganun pa rin naman. Pero ang iba lang wala na tayong common ground. Walang place na weekly magkikita. Walang chance na weekly makakapagusap. Walang meeting na same natin aattendan. Walang jokes na pagtatawanan. Wala na. Wala na din yung dating pagkakaibigan. Comment ka sa post ko sa FB, ganun din ako. Magtext ako, rereply ka naman. Chat ka ng sticker, sticker din sagot ko. Dati nga ok lang na magvideoke tayo. Haha ngayon wala na. Kahit iinvite mo ko di mo yun maiisip. Feeling ko tuloy ang sama sama ko sayo. Sorry kung totoo. Pero kasi di rin naman ako perfect. Need ko ng mga tao na di ako susukuan despite of my imperfection at gano ko sila nasaktan. Dun ko mas mafifeel yung love eh. Pero yung mafeel ko na iniiwasan ako, iniwan ako, sa tingin mo ba nakatulong yun sa pagdefine ng love?

Di ako makatulog. Shocks. Namiss ko yung tayo. Kahit wala namang “tayo.” Basta namiss kita. Dami ko nang sinabi pero di man lang kita nakamusta. Teka kamusta ka naman ba? Kamusta naman ang paglayo mo. Nasatisfy ka ba?

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Dry season of love

I miss the rain.

I miss the coldness.

I miss the heat of my sweaters.

I miss you.

I miss us.

I miss your love.

 

He Giveth More Grace by Annie Johnson Flint

He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength when the labors increase;
To added affliction He addeth His mercy;
To multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.

When we have exhausted our store of endurance, 
When our strength has failed ere the day is half done, 
When we reach the end of our hoarded resources, 
Our Father’s full giving is only begun.1

Fear not that thy need shall exceed His provision,
Our God ever yearns His resources to share;
Lean hard on the arm everlasting, availing;
The Father both thee and thy load will upbear.

His love has no limit; His grace has no measure.
His pow’r has no boundary known unto men;
For out of His infinite riches in Jesus,
He giveth, and giveth, and giveth again!

 

My Full Year Trip

2017 has been my most memorable year. Aside from growing my career and character, this year was a year full of excitements and travel.

I would like to share all those memories in those places I been to. There are so many stories behind those adventures. I’m excited to share!

January

January is my birth month and I would like to spend it differently that time. So, I fly to Bohol with my Mom and enjoyed the places so much. Mom and I went to the Chocolate Hills, enjoyed the white sandy beach of Panglao Island, and BBQ dinner in Tagbilaran.

One of the highlights of our travel is the dolphin and tortoise watching and the massive fish feeding in the middle of the sea. I never saw such enormous fishes and sea creatures. The fishes were very healthy and seems happy to me. If I will be given a chance to travel to Bohol, definitely this activities will still be in my bucket list.

The River Cruise and Butterfly Museum is a very chill way of enjoying what Bohol can offer.

February

I am blessed to have a job that lets me travel alongside of it. I was invited several times to facilitate in a training for our new system and process. The project team invites speakers and trainers on each event from different places. Fortunately, I was chosen more often. This month, the training was held in Phonm Phen, Cambodia. It’s a good thing though because I spent Valentines Day there. Hahaha! One of the hated occasion for me is Valentines Day since I do not have a boyfriend hahaha!

Anyway, we have a chance to roam around the city for a day so we went to an old camp that offers shooting range rentals and workshops. I rented a Russian AK-47. It was kinda heavy and the recoil hit me hard. This made my right shoulder bruised.

IMG_20170212_094405_462  Cambodia has a very rich history as well. We went to the so called “Killing Fields” and the stories made me realized that violence from before existed evidently in all places of the world most especially in Asia. Millions of people were killed because of genocide killing initiated by an educated man. My heart was so broken knowing that even babies and kids were killed. My country has the same scenario and this made me unhappy for several days. I could still find my generation a bit peaceful compared to the former though many people are still dying for so many reasons. let’s forget the killings. I want to focus more of the beauty of this country. The here was very good. We tasted spring rolls, frogs, sour soups and more vegetables. My Cambodian friends recommended to visit Siem Reap next time. I’ll try to go this year for my close friend and myself had a promise to fulfill a project.

March

The SLT visited Manila and we had to host the workshops and meetings. One of the things we did during this month is to tour our remaining guests to Taal Volcano. “twas a very chill travel. I love how the directors treated us and how they value other people around them. One of the director never tried doing a selfie and he had his first during our trip. Hahaha. He’s so cool and funny as well! I hope I will have a chance to visit them too but the next time I would like it to be in their country (praying).

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April

True Life. I was reminded about the real meaning of life when I volunteered to be a facilitator in an indoor retreat at church. I met a diverse crowd. It was challenging of course. But then, the satisfaction of leading other people to Jesus is overflowing in my heart. I promised to volunteer again this new year.

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May

Summer of 2017 was indeed one of the highlights for Filipinos. The scorching heat of the sun encouraged people to travel more this season. I actually do not want to travel those time because I want to save money for my mother’s birthday. However, I said yes to a mini outreach with a side trip in Real, Quezon. The experience was fine. My newly found friends and myself went to hike wearing (all of us) rash guards. All of us complained about the decision of wearing the said during hiking. I gained more friends.

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June

Never in my mind thought of going to Africa. Perhaps the reason is because of the Media, they constructed in my mind that Africa is a very poor and hopeless place (as a whole continent). Then I had an opportunity to go to Senegal which was located at West Africa. Senegal is a good country. I was not able to roam around it but the seafood experience is unforgettable. I gained friends from this country as well and up to now, I still have communications with them.

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The photo above is the Liberty monument in Dakar. Since Senegal is a Muslim country, the monument conveys the protective man to a child and a woman. Though religion is one of the controversial topic around the world, Christians and Muslims here are different. They both respect each others views and opinions. One of my friend told me that even in a family there are Christians and Muslims as well and they do not fight about their differences.

After my trip to Senegal, days after was my trip to Taiwan. This time I had a privilege to travel with Angela. This adventure is unforgettable. I flew a Sky Lantern which I dreamed when I was a youngster. We rode an old train and was lost in the station. We met friends a Filipino and a Taiwanese who can’t speak English. It was amazing that we communicated during our stay there even though Celine only uses her mobile phone to express her words. I love the food as well in Taiwan. We had free lunch from a person we met for the first time.

One funny scene Angela and I had was when we went to Shilin Market before midnight and run as fast as we can heading back to the station for it will closes in few minutes ( like 2-3 minutes). Since we had a can of beer, this made us tipsy. Angela walked zigzag and I laugh hard at her because of that not knowing that I my face was very red. Hahaha! We enjoyed our first travel together and praying for more the coming months and years.

 

July

I took a rest in traveling last July.

August- September

I wore my travel hat again this month. This time I went to Singapore, Malaysia and Zimbabwe. I am not aware why my attitude this month is a bit unknown and surprising. I treated a brother with disrespect. Sorry I really do not know the reason behind it but it is clear to me that that was so wrong. My traveling companions decided to cross Malaysia as we landed at Singapore. The travel in Malaysia was really unplanned that we wasted sometimes hours in walking for nothing. We just had fun in Malacca and the house we stayed. It was kinda cool to cross a country though. In Singapore, my emotions was heightened because of the fact that my “ex” was there and I was thinking what if I come across him and what shall I do. That made me very sad and irritated. I spoiled the trip actually. I’m so sorry to my friends. On the last day of our stay in Singapore, we went to a dollar store and indulged ourselves to very cheap items. My male friend didn’t even resist of shopping to the max level.  This resulted to over baggage.

After my Singapore-Malaysia trip, I headed back to Africa again. This time in Zimbabwe and Mozambique.

Going to Zimbabwe was very very memorable and frightening experience of my entire travel life. I have a companion going to Zimbabwe n a Friday but my visa was not yet sent to me. My flight on that day is 7:00PM then my visa arrived 7:50PM. So close. Then I reooked my ticket on the next day. I arrived at the ariport earlier because there was a typhoon. My flight again was 7:00Pm but the plane arrived late. This made me worry about my transit flight from Hong Kong to Johannesburg, South Africa. I came a bit late in Hong Kong so I hurriedly go off the plane. Good thing the ground staff of my flight waited for my arrival. We run to the other gate and this made me nervous. The staffs made it clear to me that my luggage will be transferred directly to Harare Airport in Zimbabwe. So I got to the plane minutes before the take off. I sat down with an African woman whom became my friend for she too is a believer of Christ. I enjoyed my flight until I got to Johannesburg. Winter in Johannesburg that time luckily I had a thicker jacket to make me comfortable in the weather. However, my flight to Harare was cancelled. This made me nervous and I cried hard for I travel alone without my luggage. I cannot get my luggage outside the immigration because I do not have a visa. I was so worried. So I prayed. Thankfully a staff from South African Airways helped me and gave me a hotel room inside the airport. They provided for my meal as well. I called my colleague and he asked if I want to go back to Manila because of the incident. I said no. I will pursue my adventure to Harare. The real reason why all flights going to Harare were cancelled is because of the first lady of Zimabwe. She allegedly assaulted a South African model for some reasons. The country then asked for the Zimbabwe government a permit to transit people to South Africa and vice versa. This dispute made thousands of people stranded at the airport including myself. While waiting, I gained friends again in South Africa. I met these wonderful people, Benitz and Portia (with her two cute kids).

Because of flight cancellations, I told myself to be strong and wait for the right time. Then I eventually got to Harare after being trapped from Johannesburg for 34 hours. I met a friend again during my flight. This time she’s a nurse.

The sun shined that afternoon brightly as we ascended at the plane. God is with me indeed!

So I landed at Harare. I will then need to pick my luggage and go out for my car service was outside that time. Unfortunately, my luggage was lost. I cannot find it so I need to report it. My car service already gone out the airport and my roaming did not worked. I have no contact number and no phone to use as well. God used a man. This man is a companion of my friend in the plane. He searched for my hotel’s number and tried to call the manager. Then when I got the number of the manager, another man helped me to call the driver. In few more minutes, the hotel driver picked me up from the airport. I had nothing during that time but God made something incredible to make me safe.

After a day, the local office admin of our organization told me that my luggage was at the airport already which was left from Hong Kong. My colleague and I went inside to get my  bag and the staff asked me to treat him a drink. I asked if that’s a payment of getting my luggage bag; he said no. I felt that he wants money from me for he has my document and thought that he will hand it over to me in exchange of dollars. I gave him one dollar and I saw the change on his face. i was scared. Good thing I have loose dollars and gave him eight dollars. I really do not want to give money but my documents were in his hands. I sadly went out the airport and told my colleague about it. I cried actually. I deemed it as an extortion. But of course I need to move on and be happy that my luggage has returned and I have clothes. The items there in Harare were expensive including food. I remember I enjoyed drinking Zimbezi lager. It is so good!

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Anyway, after few days, we flew to Mozambique. The food here in Mozambique is good as well. Aside from local dish, there are Thai, Western, Italian and Japanese restaurants as well. The economy here is better. The establishments are modern and well lighted.

I had a chance to walk early in the morning to find a store for I run out of toothpaste. I bumped into a local who could speak English (Mozambique’s local language is Portuguese).  He accompanied me to a nearby store but most of the store were close during Sundays. We walked more and found one. I bought a toothpaste but I forgot to exchange my dollar to Meticals. So the owner gave me a free toothpaste. My friend cannot believed that I got a free tube of toothpaste. So was I.

My colleagues and myself had a chance to have a day trip in Moz. We went tot he nearby beach and ate fresh seafood. We went to a big souvenir place and museum. Moz is a safe place to travel.

October

I admit I need to save more money to travel often but because of so many travels (even though most of those were for business) my savings got affected by it. I need to save more this year. My friends Kar and Adel shortly planned out trip to Pinto Art Museum in Antipolo. Since we want a chill travel, we really had a chill day in the place forgetting about the mosquitoes and muddy ground after the rain.

Filipinos are natural artists and many artists here dreamed to be discovered. I am happy that there is a kind of museum like this that promotes Filipino art and artists as well. I am proud of them all by constructing an art that is unusual and creative.

 

November

This time for Korea!!! South Korea is my favorite country so far. I am not really a fan of Kpop nor Korean bands but I enjoy being there because of its uniqueness. The feeling being in Korea is far more exciting than being in Disneyland HK. When I started to travel in 2016, I promised to devote myself of returning to this country yearly. I am in love deeply with Korea! This time is autumn and with a friend from my former work. Jessica is the real owner of Harry after she gave it to me to pet. I introduced Jessica to Rommel and Au as well for they have almost same dates of travel with us. We got to Nami Island on the first day, shop and dine at Myeongdong and of course tried soju for the first time. Food here in Korea should not be doubted because in my experience, all restaurants I have eaten are authentic and freshly cooked. Oh gosh, Korea. We shopped and eat at Insadong and had a chill stay in our hotel room because of the very cold weather outside. It was already winter. On teh last day, Jess and I rode the KTX bound for Busan to have a day trip and return to Incheon for our flight back to Manila. Busan captured my heart more. Oh I love Busan! I like the Hyeundae beach, the Jagalchi Market and the Gamcheon Village. I want to go back now even by just remembering our experience in Busan. usan is heart!

I will surely go back to Korea this year and praying that I shall go with my whole family. I want them to enjoy life and help them discover that there is life on other sides of the worlds.

December

December is the busiest month for me. Christmas parties, presentations, year end reports, and many more activities to accomplish every December of the year. I never thought of traveling during this month because this month is the most expensive month as well. But then I had a chance to have a day trip. My D12 sisters decided to celebrate our year end bonding at Manila City. we went to Binondo for a food trip and visited Fort Santiago afterwards. The trip is so tiring for we need to walk more however the experience is worth it. Traveling to old Manila is not what I expected. I expected the worse of it like unorganized and dirty place but I was wrong. The place is fine and safe. I saw many foreigners as well roaming around. They looks fine so I am not alarmed. Kudos to the government of Manila for keeping the place well. I am planning to return here with my mom and siblings in some other time.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Sovereignty Of God, The Attributes of God by A. W. Pink

20170819_124310The Sovereignty Of God may be defined as the exercise of His supremacy. Infinitely elevated above the highest creature, He is the Most High, Lord of heaven and earth; subject to none, influenced by none, absolutely independent. God does as He pleases, only as He pleases, always as He pleases. None can thwart Him, none can hinder Him. So His own Word expressly declares: “My counsel shall stand, and I will do all my pleasure” (Isa. 46:10); “He doeth according to his will in the army of heaven, and among the inhabitants of the earth, and none can stay His hand” (Dan. 4:35). Divine sovereignty means that God is God in fact, as well as in name, that He is on the throne of the universe, directing all things, working all things “after the counsel of His own will” (Eph. 1:11).

Justice will be served

My mother taught me to love my brothers and their imperfections and I embrace that lesson. I pray that you, too. You may love and forgive those imperfect people around your house or community. We do not have to put our pride over someone’s head and execute our madness to them because we see ourselves higher. According to the Bible, Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves (Phil. 2:3). 
Who would thought that those people whom you protect and love the most would be hurt by others near you. I am not perfect, my family even. But here’s my message to you [to those who practice injustice], you may have the days now, but I believe in the true justice by which in Him can be found. The Lord knows the truth and whoever believed in that truth will be set free. Same goes here, the truth will let everyone live in liberty. I pray that all of you will find the love and forgiveness that Jesus can only give. You may shake us, but you cannot break us. God is on our side. He is bigger than you and your “titled” people. I still believe in justice; it might not be here, but it will be served in front of the King.