I told to myself,”Stop!”

I told to myself to stop. 

But here goes my heart again. 

I’m torn between stopping and trying.

Again, I told myself to stop.

But my heart says, “you can’t”

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Fear God or Fear Everything Else

But the LORD of hosts, him you shall honor as holy. Let him be your fear, and let him be your dread. Isaiah 8:13

Fear is the universal primal response to suffering. And yet beyond doubt it is also the single greatest enemy of recovery.
~ Philip Yancey

A person who is suffering, whether physically or emotionally, often feel an tyrannical sense of desolation. That person feel forsaken, by God or by others, for they must bear the pain inside of them and because no one else completely understands. Loneliness increases the fear, which in turn increases the pain, and downward the spiral goes. Suffering does not mean that God is against you; God is on our side. Personal experience of the God of perfect love can victoriously overcome fear. Life does not promise smooth roads. It will always include circumstances that provoke fear: if not sickness, financial difficulty; if not scarcity, rejection; if not loneliness, failure. In such a world, we have a choice: to fear God, or to fear everything else. Then trust God for in the end trust represents the proper fear of the Lord. Ultimately, it will still be your choice. The question is, “what will you choose?”

Mt. Batulao (July 12, 2015–Nasugbu, Batangas)

The rainy days here in Manila moved me to be more emotional. I thought about things that aren’t necessary. Good thing I joined a hike at Mt. Batulao, Nasugbu, Batangas.

We thought at first that this would not push through because of the bad weather. Then, the sun just welcomed us there.

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What a worth it hike for us. We encountered puddles of mud and discovered many things in that mountain. One of the best things I also liked about this trampling is the people. I met new people and they are all adorable. I truly like the attitudes of hikers. Beside being nature lovers, hikers are also down to earth. They do not gloat about who they are or what they do for living. I like their spirit of encouragement and approach. Hikers don’t just love to travel and reach the summit but also want to release all negative burdens in their lives. I want to climb more mountains. It was just like climbing and conquering your own mountain/s of afflictions.

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The Lord reminded me on my morning devotion that I need to take strong courage because He has already overcomed the world.

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I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

I don’t need to fear. I don’t need to be discouraged. I don’t need anything else, I want Jesus. He is enought for me.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

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Praise God for this another adventure with the Lord. More climbs to go. 🙂

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Day 1: Good, forgiving, abounding in steadfast love

For you, O Lord, are good and forgiving, abounding in steadfast love to all who call upon you. Psalms 86:5

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We live not because of our goodness to God but His goodness to us. Not because of our obedience to Him but because of His everlasting love. We are forgiven not because we deserve it but because of His mercy and grace. We love because He first love us.

This is Jesus.

Memories from today:

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Day 2: Sinkhole. Forgiveness. Breakup Playlist. Date with Mom. Renewed Spirit.

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Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. Psalm 51:10

I appreciate Katsy’s effort in reaching me especially if time gets nearer to its end. She treat me with a cup of frappe and spend minutes of chatting with her at the couch of Starbucks.

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We’ve been discussing about sinkholes, animals and planets. It was a very meaty convo with her. She admited that she’ll miss me and my giggling laughs at her jokes. Honestly, I’ll miss her, too. She’s been my mentor in terms of work and professionalism. She’s very good in so many things. I witness how she grumbled, how she succeed in everything she does, how she treat people nicely and her humility to reachout. Katsy is one of the people I treasure in the company. Thanking the Lord for meeting them. I pray for Katsy’s everlasting love. May she also know Christ. May she also feel the love of my Savior, Jesus Christ.

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I have decided to invite my mom for a date. We dine and watch a movie she wants. So, we watched “Breakup Playlist.” That was a nice movie even I really don’t like watching tagalog movies. I learned about forgiveness, moving on, and hope. I honestly relate to breakup stories maybe because of my experience in the past. But God is so good, He’s been my comfort from the very beginning.

Praise God for this day. The Lord is also teaching me to wait patiently to Him mainly on the work I am asking Him about. One day, God will send me to the company He wants me to be in.